I dropped from 12, sometimes 15 a month to about 5 hours a month. We had an elder/MS meeting and when they dismissed the Servants, they asked me to stay over for a few minutes. They asked me about my situation and I told them whatever I told them.
The truth was that I was burnt out from all the responsibility. Meetings, personal study, parts, field service and I was just tired, but I didn't tell them that. I just said I had some overwhelming personal problems.
I told them I was going to step down, even though they really didn't want me to. The announcement was that I had been deleted.
Eventually, it lead to my inactivity.
Did it hurt? Yes.
Was it a relief? Yes.
Was I confused about how much of this belief system was still in my heart? Yes.
One of my friends in the congregation is an ex-elder and while he is still active, he feels that the burden of not having to "perform" month, after month, after month, is a great relief. No more 30 mins early, no more waiting for the last one to leave the hall to lock up, no more conducting the book study, meetings for field service. No more committees, no more nothing.
Wherever this leads you, will be wherever it leads you.
NightOwl